While reviewing my blog, I discovered this post from a couple of years back which I failed to publish. It obviously is dated and doesn’t match the calendar, but it’s still applicable.
It’s been an awesome day filled with love and joy. Surrounded by my loving wife, beautiful daughters, awesome son in law, and two granddaughters – one of which is only 1 week old – we have loved and laughed.
I have carried with me an asterisk. There in the back of my mind. There in the scar tissue part of my heart. The * ties itself to everything I am and attempt to do. The * that changes the way I’m viewed.
A faithful husband – with an * of past failures. A nagging memory that won’t go away. I know she feels it, too.
A good dad – except for that awful * that haunts my efforts to lead my family. I fear they feel it, too.
Well, * is what * is. This “holiday” has been a tad tarnished. For me anyway.
Tomorrow will be a new day with new mercies. I will trust that He will bring some new healing and strength.
Maybe in time the * will shrink in its influence and power over me.