And I should care…why??

Because, to be honest, it hurts.

Deeply.

So, why should I care so much?

Why should I care about the Church?
Why should I care about having a “conversation” with the Church?
Why should I care when the motivators for and feeders of healthy conversation are ignored and I find myself, instead, swimming in a sea of negativity?
Why should I care when the church kills the conversation?

Why should I care so much?

Why should I care about the church and the meaningful ministry it can have in the LGBTQ community?

Why should Trevor care??

Why should I care when it was at the hands of “good church people” that I was sexually abused?
Because, it was also at the hands of other good Church people that I was shown love and concern.

Why should I care when it was at the hands of “good church people” that I was placed in even more frightening vulnerable situations?
Because, it was at the hands of other good Church people that I was shown the proper attention and care.

Why should I care about the church lumping my gay sexual orientation in with pedophiles and rapists?
Because, it was at the hands of heterosexual men that I was abused, and the message needs to be shared that straight men may be just as risky as gay men.

Why should I care when it was at the hands of “good church people” that I was introduced to pornography, specifically gay porn?
Because, it was at the hands of other good Church people that I was shown what it meant to live a holy, circumspect life.

Why should I care when it was at the hands of “good church people” that I was bullied because I was a skinny and somewhat effeminate boy growing up?
Because, it was at the hands of other good Church people that I was shown full acceptance and value.

Why should I care when I try to offer some new vocabulary to the church, and in response they just tell me with great contempt that I’m being “politically correct?”

Why should I care when I am told by my specific faith family that I just need to move on because I don’t totally agree with their stance?

Why should I care so much about the Church?

Why??

Deep roots.

-Trevor

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6 thoughts on “And I should care…why??

  1. Hello Trevor, I would say you care…because you are a good soul. You are a compassionate person, a kind and giving person. You care because you want to help, when others would rather turn away and do the easier things. You care because you are you. You are special, and you care. I think the question is not so much why you care, but how could you not care. How can anyone call themselves human and not care about others. Thanks for the post. Hugs

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  2. Great reason: Deep Roots. One that applies on many levels. Roots are not only what holds a tree in place, gets nourishment from the ground, but ultimately it’s cause and source. Without them, there is no tree. Without them there is no Trevor.

    And at some level, you care because you can’t “just move on”. Those roots are the part of you that keeps you firmly grounded. A tree can branch out, but by nature, it can’t just move on.

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