50 Shades of Gray(ing)

Tomorrow is the day. I turn 50. Five decades. One-half century.

Hmmm…

It’s not that I’m afraid of the age 50, because I’m not. I feel real young. I am blessed with good health and a vibrant mindset. But, I admit that I am kind of melancholy today thinking back upon the past. I wish I had loved better…listened more intently…given more generously…lived more graciously. I’ve missed too many opportunities to get it right, too many chances to do it better.

But the bigger question is…has my life mattered?

I believe it has. In spite of my faults and failings – and there are many – my life has been spent in providing for, supporting, loving, and leading my friends and loved ones to better lives. People know my love and the love of Jesus because of my life.

Last night, my wife hosted a surprise party for me. I was genuinely surprised at the number of people who came out. Our house was packed full. But more important was the genuine love and grace that was shown to me by that group of people, many of whom know my sins in great detail.

My goal for the one-half century that is before me – and, yes, I tell my wife that I’m going to live to be 100 🙂 – is to be a world changer. In my world. In my circle of friends and family. Through this blog.

I want them to live grander.

I want YOU to live grander.

Tomorrow, I begin.

-Trevor